The above is a great representation of my current situation at work. Not too long ago, I was surrounded by a lovely and sweet bunch of ladies I nicknamed The Brain Trust. We chatted, shared troubles, comforted, entertained and supported each other. It really made work much more enjoyable and was a huge help to me with the difficult and painful series of romantic relationships I encountered during that time. But more than that, it gave me a group of people who I could be helpful to, people I valued and treasured. It was the absolute perfect counter-balance for what was going on outside work.
And then, sometimes in pairs, sometimes one by one, the left; other jobs, better jobs. Still around but busy with new things, new people. "Hi" when you pass in the hall. The last of them left a couple weeks back and I have been feeling a serious drain ever since. Happily, a few have made time to come back and visit me from time to time and I really appreciate it. Those ladies have no idea how much they did for me, even at my best explanation. So now I am feeling just like the chap in the picture above. The new folks are a whole different breed and have made their cliques already. It likely doesn't help that I was given a cube way back in the corner, mostly barely remembered by even by my bosses. I expect my red Swingline anytime soon.
I have made attempts to get to know some of the new folks, but, at this point, I either have to move on or wait for the next crop to waft in and see how they are. I really enjoy my current work and excel at it so leaving it behind would be tough, but it may come to that. I am too comfortable spending time alone to let the situation continue. Truth be told, I love the isolation my little Cube Island provides me. But that is an unhealthy love (much like the one I harbor for Hamburger Helper.) And the feeling of having that Brain Trust in my life was amazing even if the ending of it was quite painful.
But, until I can figure something out, I am indeed the Lone Wolf. Rationally, I can understand I was given the Brain Trust for the time I would need them most and now that I am in a healthier, happier place, their mission is over. But I also know I make a really awesome friend when given the chance so I will fight my introversion though it be a knockdown, drag-out encounter.
My very best friend is a lovely lady from Perth, Australia I have the pleasure of Skyping with most every Wed. and Sun. mornings. She is the prototype of friendship to me: kind, loving, funny, caring, sweet, patient, understanding, empathetic. She is a one-woman Brain Trust and I value her quite highly. And she knows that, never has to wonder. She is the only being that follows me on each of my current active areas of social media: Facebook, Blogspot, both Tumblr blogs, Twitter. So she has a fairly clear picture of who I am and what makes me tick and she loves me anyway :)
Lest I neglect to mention it, my ladyfriend is the reason I have little further need for a brain trust. Her impact on my life has been profound and wonderful. A different type of relationship than I have been in previously. But that is another blog for another time.
And now I am making some lovely new acquaintances here too. Internet friends are an introverts dream. So your visits and comments really do make my day, make me smile. That supportive and encouraging behavior is so wonderful to me. So, THANKS!!! You guys amaze me.
Next up--Another outfit post from me. With 4 new looks!
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