Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Oddball in the Corner Pocket



The above is a great representation of my current situation at work.  Not too long ago, I was surrounded by a lovely and sweet bunch of ladies I nicknamed The Brain Trust.  We chatted, shared troubles, comforted, entertained and supported each other.  It really made work much more enjoyable and was a huge help to me with the difficult and painful series of romantic relationships I encountered during that time.  But more than that, it gave me a group of people who I could be helpful to, people I valued and treasured.  It was the absolute perfect counter-balance for what was going on outside work.

 

And then, sometimes in pairs, sometimes one by one, the left; other jobs, better jobs.  Still around but busy with new things, new people.  "Hi" when you pass in the hall.  The last of them left a couple weeks back and I have been feeling a serious drain ever since.  Happily, a few have made time to come back and visit me from time to time and I really appreciate it.  Those ladies have no idea how much they did for me, even at my best explanation.  So now I am feeling just like the chap in the picture above.  The new folks are a whole different breed and have made their cliques already.  It likely doesn't help that I was given a cube way back in the corner, mostly barely remembered by even by my bosses.  I expect my red Swingline anytime soon.


I have made attempts to get to know some of the new folks, but, at this point, I either have to move on or wait for the next crop to waft in and see how they are.  I really enjoy my current work and excel at it so leaving it behind would be tough, but it may come to that.  I am too comfortable spending time alone to let the situation continue.  Truth be told, I love the isolation my little Cube Island provides me.  But that is an unhealthy love (much like the one I harbor for Hamburger Helper.)  And the feeling of having that Brain Trust in my life was amazing even if the ending of it was quite painful.




But, until I can figure something out, I am indeed the Lone Wolf.  Rationally, I can understand I was given the Brain Trust for the time I would need them most and now that I am in a healthier, happier place, their mission is over.  But I also know I make a really awesome friend when given the chance so I will fight my introversion though it be a knockdown, drag-out encounter.
My very best friend is a lovely lady from Perth, Australia I have the pleasure of Skyping with most every Wed. and Sun. mornings.  She is the prototype of friendship to me:  kind, loving, funny, caring, sweet, patient, understanding, empathetic.  She is a one-woman Brain Trust and I value her quite highly.  And she knows that, never has to wonder.  She is the only being that follows me on each of my current active areas of social media:  Facebook, Blogspot, both Tumblr blogs, Twitter.  So she  has a fairly clear picture of who I am and what makes me tick and she loves me anyway :)


Lest I neglect to mention it, my ladyfriend is the reason I have little further need for a brain trust.  Her impact on my life has been profound and wonderful.  A different type of relationship than I have been in previously.  But that is another blog for another time.

And now I am making some lovely new acquaintances here too.   Internet friends are an introverts dream.   So your visits and comments really do make my day, make me smile.  That supportive and encouraging behavior is so wonderful to me.  So, THANKS!!!  You guys amaze me.

Next up--Another outfit post from me.  With 4 new looks!

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May 22, 2013 at 2:17 AM

Hello
Your post touched me. I felt for you. Can't you move to another job where some of these wonderful women work at?
I'm happy for you you have a true friend. Better one like that then 100 that don't care!!
As you said internet can provide new friendships so i'm sure you'll find some more soon.
Even if i just started following you i'm not used to see you sitting on the edge so get yourself together and let positiveness take over :-) You're a wonderfull person no need to meet you to know that!
So make the best of each day ...
PS curious to see your 4 outfits ;-)
xxx

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May 22, 2013 at 1:01 PM

These posts make me feel so sad. I'm so glad you have your wonderful lady friend and it's true, one really good friend is tons better than a bunch of false friends. I'm so sure you will be making really good friends through this blog, so get off of that ledge and think positive.
BTW I just love the photo of the kittens.
xoxoxo

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May 22, 2013 at 6:31 PM

Oh, Lenny my dear friend, I assumed the work plight was just that... a plight, that you were not truly letting on about. But man, its a plight.Your lady is in Australia? Dude, when are you visiting Australia? At the risk of sounding schmaltzy and God forbid, serious, you're so much fun. Very special. Don't put yourself through anything you can do without. I'm glad you're working to figure this out. I'm here for ya. Peebs.

Now back to our regularly scheduled sarcastic programming...

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May 22, 2013 at 8:55 PM

Oh how lovely of you. Thanks so much. Even if I did follow some of them to a new position (and there will be a day my job is boring for me so that will happen) they have moved too far away emotionally to ever recapture that magic. They will forever have my heart though. Doing pretty well staying positive everywhere except work but I am trying to make it happen there too. PS The outfit posts may be delayed as my computer is currently romancing a nasty virus. B it I promise coming soon. Thanks again, gorgeous.

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May 22, 2013 at 9:00 PM

No need to feel sad for me, Sweet Amy. Your kindness really touches me but I promise I am OK. Just have so much love and caring to share and hoping for a few more sponges to come soak it in. You are such a wonderful lady and I really appreciate how much you care. Glad you liked the gatos. Try to include them in my sadder posts to keep it lighter. You're awesome!

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May 22, 2013 at 9:05 PM

You are having a night, Peeber :). My friend is down under my ladyfriend lives 5 minutes away. Would love to visit Koalatown someday though. I like serious you. She's like a less-fun but still amazing you. Wonderful people bring out the special in me CHEESE. :D

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May 23, 2013 at 12:47 AM

Yeah, just got your last note and am so glad to be wrong. I usually am...wrong I mean...not glad about it. Serious me can get pretty freaking serious, dependent upon the situation. Be careful what you wish for. None the less ...glad the gal has a short commute. When you get to australia pick me up a koala....skip loves bears ( I am partial to kangaroos myself.) Talk soon, Lenny....Peebs

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May 23, 2013 at 10:38 PM

I felt so sad reading this, because I know how lonely it must feel, especially after having such a fantastic friendship with the Brain Trust ladies. However, its good you plan on pushing yourself out of your introversion. I often feel like I'm "socially awkward" because of my natural, introverted nature.
Anyway, it's good you have such a lovely lady friend! She sounds wonderful :)
Thanks for the thoughtful comment on my last post by the way, it's so encouraging to read

Trendy Teal

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Jo
May 24, 2013 at 4:38 AM

It could get really sad to see the people you used to hang out with and share many memories with leave one by one. Saying goodbyes is part and parcel of life that we have to accept.

In your case, it doesn't seem to help to be "banished" to cube land and to only have a ledge to sit on. I'm glad you have a nice lady friend whom you communicate with often. I hope that in time to come, there would be lovely people coming your way at work again.

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May 24, 2013 at 5:45 AM

That picture of the cliff is epic

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May 24, 2013 at 7:29 AM

cool photos!

www.ladyparisienne.blogspot.fr

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May 24, 2013 at 7:49 PM

Awww. You are so sweet. Thanks you wonderful woman you. You have such a beautiful heart.

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May 24, 2013 at 7:51 PM

Thanks so much. I am staying positive about it. Wonderful of you to stop by.

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May 24, 2013 at 7:52 PM

It is so pretty. Thanks for stopping by. Once my computer is fixed will be visiting your site.

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May 24, 2013 at 7:53 PM

Thanks so much. Great to have you stop by. Will come visit your blog soon.

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May 24, 2013 at 9:31 PM

what can I say? such an inspiring post :)

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May 26, 2013 at 11:37 AM

I can understand your plight..life can be tough..Take care,,,It is a great post and good to know your insight,,

love
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May 26, 2013 at 7:42 PM

most days I prefer to be a lone wolf, you're very lucky.
Xo, Megan, www.TfDiaries.com

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