Sunday, April 20, 2014

The Quest / La búsqueda


Welcome to All Things Bright and Lovely.  I am so happy to have you visit.  Today I will be featuring photos I took walking around the city of Indianapolis, Indiana.  Mixed in with these photos will be some thoughts about the quest I have been on the last several weeks to try and connect with people online in a more meaningful way.

Bienvenido a todas las cosas brillantes y encantador. Estoy tan feliz de que te visite. Hoy contará con fotos que tomé caminando alrededor de la ciudad de Indianapolis, Indiana. Mezclado con estas fotos serán algunas reflexiones sobre la búsqueda que he estado en las últimas semanas para tratar de conectar con la gente en línea de una manera más significativa.


Being I am incredibly shy and an eternal introvert, reaching out to people, even those I am familiar with such as some of you, is very scary for me.  I really must work up a great amount of courage to send each message.  If you are reading this and have not received one, I am most likely still too nervous to write you.  It is certainly not due to lack of desire to do so.

Soy increíblemente tímido introvertido eterno, tratando de llegar a la gente, incluso los que estoy familiarizado con tales como algunos de ustedes, es muy aterrador para mí. Realmente tengo que trabajar en una gran cantidad de valor para cada mensaje. Si estás leyendo esto y no ha recibido uno, soy muy probablemente todavía demasiado nervioso para escribirte. Es ciertamente no debido a la falta de deseo de hacerlo.


What I have been offering are words of appreciation, chances for people to know what wonderful impacts they have on me in a variety of different ways.  The common theme tying them together though is that each one came completely out of a place of deep love and admiration.  At first, I only approached those I thought knew me well enough to understand this, or at least they should.

Lo que he estado ofreciendo son palabras de agradecimiento, oportunidades para la gente saber qué efectos maravillosos que tienen en mí en una variedad de maneras diferentes. El tema común atarlos juntos aunque es que cada uno vino totalmente fuera de lugar de profundo amor y admiración. Al principio, sólo se acercó a quienes creía que me conocía lo suficientemente bien como para entender esto, o al menos deberían hacerlo.


Emails were sent, Instagram direct messages as well.  My eternally optimistic heart braced for the warm, appreciative responses, longed for them.  There was nothing I wished for more than acceptance of the self I was daring to share.

Los correos electrónicos fueron enviados, Instagram mensajes directos también. Mi corazón eternamente optimista apoyado por las respuestas cálidas, agradecidas, deseadas por ellos. No había nada que deseaba más que aceptación de sí mismo que estaba atreverse a compartir.


But those early responses were mostly so discouraging.  Instead of acceptance and friendship I was met with being ignored or being treated like a stranger.  Illusions were shattered and my optimism deeply shaken.

Pero esas respuestas tempranas eran en su mayoría tan desalentadoras. En lugar de aceptación y amistad me encontré con la ignoran o ser tratado como un extraño. Las ilusiones se hicieron añicos y mi optimismo profundamente conmovido.


But thankfully there were two I approached in my honest, open, trusting way who found value in it, two of you readers actually.  You allowed me to be myself, you accepted me as I am, my words made you happy.  That is so amazing and encouraging for me, a man so battered by a life of rejection.

Pero afortunadamente había dos que me acerqué en mi sincera, abierta, confiar en la forma que encontró valor en él, dos de ustedes lectores en realidad. Usted me ha permitido ser yo mismo, me acepta como soy, mis palabras te han hecho feliz. Es tan increíble y alentador para mí, un hombre tan maltratada por una vida de rechazo.


Since those early days I have branched out and become braver to reach out to those I know less well.  It has yielded some very interesting and bizarre experiences, some great, some so sad.  And I question now the wisdom in continuing.  I have so much love to share and am dying to shower it on anyone who accepts me as I am, who returns it even a small amount, who appreciates it.  The fact it is so difficult to find people who fit that description baffles and depresses me.

Desde aquellos primeros días he diversificó y ser valiente llegar a los conozco menos bien. Ha dado algunas experiencias muy interesantes y extraños, algo genial, algo tan triste. Y ahora cuestiono la sabiduría para continuar. Tengo mucho amor para compartir y muero por lo de la ducha a nadie que me acepta como soy, que devuelve incluso una pequeña cantidad, que valore. El hecho es tan difícil encontrar gente que cabe que Descripción desconcierta y me deprime.


Trying to reach new levels with people, trying to move past only passing comments back and forth like notes in a classroom, trying to share myself, it has all been exhausting.  Will I continue or even should I?  That question will be answered one person, one urging of my heart, at a time.

Tratando de llegar a nuevos niveles con la gente, tratando de superar comentarios hacia adelante y hacia atrás como notas de paso en un aula, intentando compartir, todo ha sido agotador. ¿Continuaré o incluso yo? Esa pregunta será contestada una sola persona, una insistencia de mi corazón, a la vez.

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April 21, 2014 at 4:25 AM

Dear Shamu. I would be so disheartened if you were to discontinue. Sure I have just started following your blog but it is honestly one of my favorites.What made me curious to visit it the first time was your warm, encouraging comment on others' posts, Your poems are so incredible. Your writing style is warm and unique. You have a beautiful blog and I just wish you would continue some more. I have read some of your older posts too and you come across as such a lovely human being. Your appreciations sound genuine to me and never shallow even though sometimes I do feel I do not deserve such kindness and honestly one of the reasons why I look forward to blogging even though mine is such a tiny one is due to followers and kind commenters like you,. Your constant feedback is very much appreciated and always looked forward to with much eagerness and keeps me going.
However, I understand it is imperative to follow your heart. If your heart says you have had enough here and do not want no more, you will do what it says. I will always remember you as one of my first friends on the blog world and one of the kindest ever to come.

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April 21, 2014 at 5:35 AM

I'm back after a short break! I have been so busy these day and couldn't read my favorite blogs! I always love to read your posts especially your beautiful poems! I would be so disheartened if you were to discontinue. You are such a great blogger and fantastic human being! Have a lovely Easter!

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April 21, 2014 at 10:04 AM

Hi dear
Interesting words, and beautiful pics
xoxo

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April 21, 2014 at 1:28 PM

love it
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April 21, 2014 at 4:48 PM

There are thousands of wonderful people out there, so you should not be discouraged by those that ignore you or treat you like a stranger. I have come to know some amazing people through my blog and have even become good friends with some of them. Of course there are others who never bother to even say "thank you" for your comments. Forget about those and continue with many others.It would be a shame for you to give up now because I believe you have achieved quite a lot. It is extremely difficult for a shy person to make the first move but I think that slowly you are coming out of your shell and a a little braver every day. And from the comments I read I'm sure many would miss your blog. I know I would.
xoxoxo

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April 21, 2014 at 7:10 PM

I'm so glad you've pursued your quest , so glad I know you and I whole heartedly agree with the other lovely messages above

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April 21, 2014 at 7:59 PM

Thank you so much dear. What amazing and kind words. Have no fear, my blogging and commenting on the blogs of others is way to fun for me to stop doing :) I just yearn for a something deeper than the format provides, but I do very much enjoy what it does have to offer me. I enjoy sharing myself on these posts and on the posts of others. Wonderful words such as yours are just the kind of indication I need to see that lets me know my efforts are not wasted :)

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April 21, 2014 at 8:01 PM

No need to fear, sweetie. The blogging will continue. Just questioning whether to continue my journey of trying to build stronger bonds with some of my readers and IG folks. But I am going nowhere, I promise :) Thank you for your wonderful words. They touch my heart!

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April 21, 2014 at 8:01 PM

Thank you, lovely lady. So sweet :) xoxo

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April 21, 2014 at 8:01 PM

Very sweet of you, gorgeous! Big hugs :)

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April 21, 2014 at 8:04 PM

My first follower with such kind words for me :) Never fear, sweetie, the blog continues. It is the reaching out I wonder about moving forward with. Some of the responses have been so confusing to me, from people I really thought knew me better. Taken many emotional hits last few weeks and am exhausted from it so I have to decide if its all worth it. Thank you for those very dear words. Your support has always made me smile! Oh, and thank you for your comment :)P xoxo

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April 21, 2014 at 8:05 PM

Awww, darling that means so much. Your friendship has been both an amazing treasure and a measuring stick to hold all others up against to make sure they pass the test. Thank you SO much for all you do :D

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April 21, 2014 at 9:01 PM

It's lovely to read and see what you share Shamu. You are a truly lovely person. Thank you for the insight into you.

Krissie - http://pearlsofstyle.blogspot.com.au

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April 22, 2014 at 3:13 AM

As I read your post, my eyes are tearful..I see acceptance of self here and and bountiful of sadness. I believe it hasn't been an easy journey for you...but acceptance is the first step to healing. Embracing self and who we are is a beautiful thing, that is what makes you stand out from the rest. You rock Rick. Rocking Rick. I enjoy reading from you. Still waiting on that email. Cheers ririzmusings.blogspot.com

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April 22, 2014 at 7:28 AM

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April 22, 2014 at 9:55 AM

I love the way you create posts! Thank you to share them with us!
As always- the most inspiring person I have ever meet! Thank you that you are! :-*
You are my inspiration! Love to come back! :-*




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April 22, 2014 at 10:49 AM

It feels nice to read you and I agree with what you say!! Well you are a brilliant photographer..I never knew this. Amazing pics you have clicked!! :)

Keep in touch
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April 22, 2014 at 12:01 PM

so creative!XOXO
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April 22, 2014 at 1:34 PM

Eres muy bueno escribiendo y siempre es un placer leer tu blog. Estas haciendo muy buen trabajo
Un beso

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April 22, 2014 at 2:45 PM

Bonito lugar y bonitas líneas.

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April 22, 2014 at 3:25 PM

Hello lovely, kind, wise Shamu!!! You are so much full of heart than one finds in the word at large. I don't know exactly in what way you are reaching out but is it impossible it is being misinterpreted? So easy to happen when one is relying on the typed word without the nuances of speech and gesture. You have a great heart. I very much appreciate your friendship so keep being your kind, fun self! X

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April 22, 2014 at 6:42 PM

nice photos shamu boo:)

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April 23, 2014 at 4:56 AM

Your presence on social media has brought much joy to some. Your sweet words have warmed the hearts of some. There would always be others who don't give a damn. Don't need to be disheartened by these. I don't quite know if they had any adverse reactions to your comments but I don't see why since your comments are always a joy to read. As long as you continue to establish meaningful connection with those who bothered and those who mattered, that's ok.

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April 23, 2014 at 6:13 AM

Hey Sham, I'm very happy to read your sweet reply. I really really love to read your posts and poems, you are the most sweet and inspiring person I have ever meet! Have a very nice day <3 Take care

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April 23, 2014 at 6:37 PM

Hey Shamu... You already know what I think but, no matter what, you should keep writing articles and poems. Whether you wannt to continue bonding in direct message etc or not is your choice. Do you REALLY feel better doing it ?

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April 23, 2014 at 8:32 PM

You are so kind, dear. That is amazing to read :)))

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April 23, 2014 at 8:33 PM

Thank you so much dear. You are a kind friend :)

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April 23, 2014 at 8:33 PM

Thanks, sweetie. I will check it out for sure :)

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April 23, 2014 at 8:41 PM

Wow!!! You are just so sweet, thank you :) That is very amazing!

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April 23, 2014 at 8:42 PM

Thank you so much, dear. That is wonderful :)

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April 23, 2014 at 8:42 PM

oooh thank you sweetie :) xoxo

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April 23, 2014 at 8:43 PM

Tan increíble que visitar, encantadora dama :) Gracias por las palabras dulces! xoxo

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April 23, 2014 at 8:45 PM

Gracias :) tanto encantadora dulce uno

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April 23, 2014 at 8:48 PM

Awww, so sweet dear! Misinterpreted? Probably not, well except for the ones I use Google Translate on :) I am very direct in my interactions and put much thought into them. What does happen is people are too busy to really read them and react to one thing instead of actually appreciating the effort. Thank you for the wonderful encouragement :)

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April 23, 2014 at 8:49 PM

Wow, sweetheart, how amazing! Thank you so much :) Hope your day is wonderful too :)

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April 23, 2014 at 8:51 PM

Ah that is the real question you are correct. I will say that rarely am I feeling better doing it but when it works, if even for a small time, it feels amazing. A rush like no other. When acceptance is given to me after I share myself with someone it lights me up so brightly. But I do go through an awful lot of crap to get to those moments. Thank you dear friend :)

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April 23, 2014 at 9:32 PM

You are so right, dear. What a nice way to focus it for me. Thank you!

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April 28, 2014 at 4:32 AM

Que preciosidad de fotos!

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May 3, 2014 at 1:17 AM

amazing pics!
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