Thursday, April 23, 2015

Disowned / Repudiado



My life has been spent
In pursuit of the admiration
Of those too self involved
To care

The idea of being myself
Was never in my mind
All that mattered
Was being the self
That made people the happiest
That kept them interested
Involved
Even if only just barely

All my effort
Spent crafting a pleasing facade
And it was never enough
No matter how much I bent
They wished me to break
And bow
And be the me they wanted

All in fear
That these people
These lost, sad, selfish people
Might leave me
Alone
So I turned my back on who I am
The greatest betrayal a man can make
By my own self
Disowned
The most painful sting
Deep heartbreak

And now
I am awake
And if I dare vow anything
It is that I will let my full voice sing
Even if my song is only mine



Mi vida ha transcurrido
En la búsqueda de la admiración
De los que son demasiado auto involucrado
cuidar

La idea de ser yo mismo
Nunca estuvo en mi mente
Lo único que importaba
Estaba siendo el auto
Que los hechos la más felices
Eso los mantiene interesados
implicado
Incluso si sólo apenas

Todo mi esfuerzo
Pasé la elaboración de una fachada agradable
Y nunca era suficiente
No importa lo mucho que me incliné
Me desearon para romper
y arco
Y el me querían

Todo en el miedo
Que estas personas
Estas perdidas,, gente egoísta tristes
Podría dejarme
solo
Así que me di la espalda a lo que soy
La mayor traición que un hombre puede hacer
Por mi propio auto
repudiado
La picadura más dolorosa
angustia profunda

y ahora
Estoy despierto
Y si me atrevo a prometer nada
Es que voy a dejar que mi voz llena cantar
Incluso si mi canción es sólo mío



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April 23, 2015 at 8:56 PM

Precioso sitio!
Con tu permiso me quedo para seguirte, besos!

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April 23, 2015 at 9:50 PM

I believe that is the mistake many people, especially at younger age, fall into: instead of being yourself we try to create someone others want us to be. But we can't really be happy if we have to pretend being someone else all the time, even if the person we like stays with us. Been there, too. Luckily, realized it early in life. Well, thank you for this poem.

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April 23, 2015 at 11:34 PM

Me ha gustado mucho la intensidad de este poema.
Un abrazo.
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April 23, 2015 at 11:41 PM

I think you are showing that you have a voice through all these poems in which you identify that 'they' have disregarded you and they are selfish etc. Not caring what people think comes with age. We all want to please other people when we are young and it becomes less important as we grow older. You're definitely not alone in that, it is only a privileged few who dont have a care.

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April 24, 2015 at 12:03 AM

Great post

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April 24, 2015 at 1:44 AM

really touching poem! Many times I found myself trying to be something different to feel accepted... but finally understood that my life is too short to spend so many times lying to myself and pretending to be something that I didn´t even like!!
I love your sensitivity and gentleness!
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April 24, 2015 at 3:55 AM

Postagem maravilhosa arrasou bom final de semana.
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April 24, 2015 at 4:26 AM

Love your style, enjoythe weekend!

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April 24, 2015 at 4:37 AM

Another wonderful piece of work. I love your sensitivity, have a great day Sham!

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April 24, 2015 at 9:11 AM

great post dear
the second picture speaks volume
beautifully written

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April 24, 2015 at 10:58 AM

wow thats such an amazing poem...loved you thought.....

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April 24, 2015 at 11:44 AM

Muchas gracias por la visita!
Feliz fin de semana, besos.

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April 25, 2015 at 3:56 AM

It's a deep, sad thought, a touching poem. Beautiful :)
Hugs Shamu, have a great week end!
p.s. love the first picture, it's tender <3
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April 25, 2015 at 4:36 AM

I love reading what you write, it always feels good to come and read your poems with amazing pictures!! :)

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April 25, 2015 at 6:52 AM

Oi divulguei o seu blog da uma passadinha lá para ver se gostou,
bela postagem arrasou, bom final de semana
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Jo
April 25, 2015 at 8:33 AM

Remember to be yourself and not be too bothered by people who are not worth it. =)

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April 26, 2015 at 1:17 AM

Lovely post! First paint is amazing!
Best regards

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April 26, 2015 at 7:06 AM

I feel really touched by this poem, perhaps because I've been thinking about a similar topic all morning. The nicer we are, the less people appreciate us...that is how it seems to be sometimes. I think the key thing is why we do something...I for example often do favour for people, but the important thing for me to know is that I don't do them for them (because they don't know how to appreciate it) but I do it because I can...because I have the energy, the drive and the principles...I no longer feel the need to do things to be accepted and while I try to be as nice as I can, at this point in my life, I feel that I don't own anyone anything- and that's a very liberating emotion.

wonderful poem, once again!

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April 26, 2015 at 12:06 PM

Hi dear
Inspiring poem
As always your words are nice and touching
xoxo

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April 26, 2015 at 3:56 PM

Amazing! Beautiful pictures!!!

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April 26, 2015 at 4:20 PM

Heeey sweetheart!
I love your blog and am following.
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April 26, 2015 at 5:50 PM

Wise words. Always be yourself, no matter what. xoxoxo

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April 26, 2015 at 10:03 PM

I really love this poem, so deep and somehow i can relate.

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April 27, 2015 at 2:34 PM

Have a nice week!

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